M scared....

Hmmm I am feeling low today I don't know..Y ???? You know sometimes I feel that you need someone around to be with them sit with them alone, just talk and share things, forget about things u couldn't do in life and failed to achieve things You expected to happen and people told You gonna do and then You couldn't !!!!

That feeling of losing, scare of falling behind alone !!!!

I don't know partner or what ...but someone who just sits with u and knows You in and out.

Who when You are down and need that shoulder and eyes to look at U !!!!

U see that itch of doing something which keeps u going everyday, fails to spark Ur life sometimes
and then Ur little mind tells you that this thing ain't supposed to be this way..i.e.on wrong side of success



But there are very lite things that u cud do

or cud have dared to do, coz u r scared... scared of losing and getting embarrassed in front of yourself and people who think you are too good for it and u can crack it

Then u decide that u might wanna walk with that broken ankle and make Ur life real !!

which is so hard to move on a bleeding fucking leg, which wants to give up and then someone tells people...i know him.. i know her she /.. he wud win on one leg

aahhh then again u think..people are expecting from u.. and that fear comes back to torture and haunt u, obsess u, disgust u

So u know ...sometimes i m scared ...scared of who I m .. especially who i want to be... will I be able to make it...or fate wud just break it..

I m just scared...nothing else hits me....just scared